Showing posts with label home. Show all posts
Showing posts with label home. Show all posts

Thursday, June 12, 2014

about pie and people

I baked this strawberry pie today.

The littlest of the kids helped pick the berries from our generous neighbor's garden.  The corn starch needed for the recipe was borrowed from the neighbor across the street.  Each of the kids helped bake it in some way -- cutting strawberries, making the crust, mixing the filling, whipping the cream.

We enjoyed it for snack tonight, piled high with that fresh whipped-up cream.  And I felt grateful for the many hands that contributed to its goodness.  Amazing even.

Yet I couldn't pick the berries, or make the pie, or even eat it without thinking about the last strawberry pie I made.

It was June 25, 2013.

The day had started with this...

Strawberry picking with all four kids.

By the time we were done picking and loaded back in the van, I was done.  With a capital D.O.N.E.  It was maybe 10:00 in the morning.  It wasn't what had happened at the strawberry farm, but everything surrounding it.  We were in the second week of being out of our old house, but not yet in our new one.  I had spent many days apart from my husband, solely responsible for the kids in an environment without any routine.  I was exhausted.  I was emotional.  I was anxious about getting to our new home. 

And all I wanted to do -- to feel some sense of normalcy -- was to pick strawberries and bake a pie.  (I had somewhat reluctantly come to terms with the fact that there was no way, no how, I was going to get to make any jam.)

But a pie.  I was determined for a pie.

I called my sister Michele from right there in the parking lot of the strawberry farm, and tried explaining all of this through my sobbing.

Her response: "Bring the kids here.  Drive here right now.  We will figure it out."

I came to find out later that she couldn't understand a word I was saying.  Yet she took on her blubbering sister, with my four over-tired, out-of-routine, no sense of home, been in the van for hours and hours children.

She amended her afternoon plans to include me.  She rallied her kids - my dear nieces and nephew - to be in charge of their cousins for the day.

I borrowed a sun dress and shoes, and off we went for several hours.  A lunch with our sister Danielle.  Followed by a behind the scenes tour of a nearby theater at which Danielle was performing.

We laughed.  I cried.  It was wonderful.



That night, I made a strawberry pie.  I used the berries my littles had picked that morning.  I borrowed a pan and all of the other ingredients from my sister.  She wrote down the recipe for me.  It baked in the oven of a house that other friends generously opened to us for several weeks as we were in between homes.

That pie I made on June 25 of last year, and we ate for breakfast on June 26, tasted amazing.


Amazing with generosity.  Amazing with gratitude.  Amazing with humility.

I thought of all of this as I ate today's pie.  The pie many hands contributed to on June 12, 2014.  And I cried.  Even a year later, I feel very deeply how hard that time had been.  And how important it was that people were there.  And still are, in so many ways.

I've tried to be like that - to be there - in this new house, in this new community.

Maybe that's what it's all about.  Being good to each other.  Not always understanding the words being blubbered, but knowing what is being said.  Inviting them over, without their having to ask.  Being very good, when it is most needed.

With extra whipped cream on top, thank you.





Wednesday, December 11, 2013

little by little




Something I didn't think about when buying a new house was where I could hide Christmas presents.  It never crossed my mind.  Even if it had, it likely wouldn't have been a consideration in buying this house.  But it seems important now.  Mostly because I don't have a good hiding spot for Christmas presents.  Our old house had a basement with perfect nooks and crannies, an attic that the kids didn't venture into.  My gift-hiding was almost an art, down to the tubs I sorted and stored them in once wrapped, for easy and quiet (oh so important with growing littles!) transfer to the stockings and tree on Christmas Eve night.

But this new house?  No nooks or crannies.  No tubs.  No gift-hiding art.

So I'm trying to scheme a new way.  Just one of many things I didn't think of.  Until now.  Where should we place the Christmas tree?  Did we toss the wreath when we moved?  Where oh where did I pack the Santa bags?  Can we unpack all of the boxes stacked in front of the fireplace in time for Santa to make his entrance?

So much new.  I've come to realize that this move -- that began in earnest in February -- really is not yet done.  That each season, each holiday, each transition brings a re-imagining of what to do, how to do it, with whom to do it.  Where to hid the darn presents.  No wonder I'm tired.

But little by little I am unpacking how this season, how this holiday, will be.  At least for this year.  I am letting the new of our lives make it okay for it be new, and different, not holding it up to what came before, but instead making it the holiday for now.

Each day, little by little, a bit more decorates our space.  The familiar Christmas books, Santa bags on bedroom doorknobs, and small tree, brought out for St. Nicholas Day, to light the hallway. 

The new too.  A snowflake tree in the kitchen -- a tree in the kitchen, well I never!  A vintage embroidered table runner for a tree skirt in the sun-room.  And, easily my favorite, winter prints by the amazing Phoeble Wahl in a spot I get to see and enjoy them dozens of times a day.

And enjoy them I will. 

As I will all of the new, and the comfortable familiar, in this season.

Friday, October 4, 2013

this moment

Joining Soulemama, and many others, in this moment

In Amanda's words: "A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember."

Please link to your moment too -- I love to see what you are enjoying this week!

Wishing you a weekend full of grace and goodness!

Saturday, August 10, 2013

closer to home

It isn't always the unpacking of boxes, painting of walls, or hanging of artwork that makes your house feel more like your home.

Sometimes it is having just the right person come by and stay for awhile that makes it feel that way.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

dispatch from my day {iPhone}








I'm settling in.  Sloooowly.  We've found a bit of rhythm, and have unfound it, and look for it again. 


I am getting used to the amazing view out of my kitchen window.  I have to remind myself daily that this in now where we live.

I've been listening to Kat Edmonson.  Really, what isn't beautiful about her voice?

I've begun baking bread again.  That is a rhythm I can get my head around, for sure.

I've been reminded that it is tricky to take three (not even four!) kids to the doctor's office at the same time. Thankfully I simply have the best (and cutest, ahem) doctor on the planet.

Visiting old chums has brought comfort and a respite from making new friends.

I am now on Twitter.  I kept reading Honey's Twitter stream.  So he signed me up for my own.  I enjoy its bits and pieces of life and laughter throughout the day.  Please let me know if you tweet too, I would love to follow you.  (I'm @bcomingclaudine)

Squirmy is everywhere.  E.V.E.R.Y.W.H.E.R.E.  Which means I am everywhere too.

So, I'm off.  Squirmy is on the kitchen counter.  See ya.

Friday, August 2, 2013

this moment

Joining Soulemama, and many others, in this moment

In Amanda's words: "A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember."


Please link to your moment too -- I love to see what you are enjoying this week!

Wishing you a weekend full of grace and goodness!

Sunday, July 28, 2013

finding









These days and weeks that I haven't been here in this space, I've instead been finding.

Finding the sunlight.

Finding the right cupboards for the right dishes.

Finding paint colors.

Finding that having double ovens - double ovens - doubles the loaves of bread I can bake at a time.

Finding that moving our family of six has been so, so hard.  So much harder than I ever imagined,  physically and emotionally.

Finding the generosity of family and friends to be a balm.  Reminding me that I am not alone in this world, that there are so many that love and care for us.

Finding gratitude for the sweetness of friends who bring dinner on our first night in our new house.  Dinner, and the sweetest housewarming gift of cleaning supplies and rubber gloves and dish towels.  Almost too pretty to use.

Finding a different system of laundry with a large capacity washer.  Simply cavernous!

Finding special spots.

Finding the courage to make new friends.

Finding new rhythms to our days.  New routes to drive.  New places to go.

Finding our lives feel new is so many ways and trying to live these lives in ways that feel just right.
Finding that by the time my kiddos are asleep on these late summer nights, that I too am sleepy and happily snuggle on the sofa with Honey and Sherlock, instead of unpacking another box.

Finding that I miss being here with you, dear readers.  I will be back, soon.  As I find my days becoming my own again.

Friday, June 21, 2013

by the numbers


16,000+: pounds of belongings

2: storage pods (actually called Pack Rat.  I've been calling it Rat Pack, and thinking of Frank Sinatra.)

8 ft. by 8 ft. by 16 ft.: size of each pod

20: hours that our 7th spent at our house moving furniture and boxes

9: number of boxes and Rubbermaid bins my Honey and I have of childhood treasures

17: number of times I promised our 7th that I can purge those boxes down to one for me and one for Honey

42: Rubbermaid bins I own, full of items I own

1: meal delivered by a good friend

12: midnight, the earliest I got to bed

4: o'clock in the morning, the latest I got to bed

1 & 1/2 multiplied by 3: hours times people it took to clear out our attic (in a thunderstorm no less!)

Gazillion: kindnesses given by my parents and the aunties and uncles and cousins in taking care of the kids and family as we make this move

15: number of nights in between the old and the new houses

15: number of nights we are being welcomed by family and friends into their homes

Countless:  gratitudes felt day after day after day

Friday, June 14, 2013

this moment

Joining Soulemama, and many others, in this moment

In Amanda's words: "A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember."

Please link to your moment too -- I love to see what you are enjoying this week!

Wishing you a weekend full of grace and goodness!

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

this home

We've been packing.

Painting the garage.

Patching dozens (and dozens more) nail holes.

Saying our many good-byes.  Some are so very hard.

And fluctuating between feeling like we can easily do this, and wondering when we will do all of this.

More so I'm uncertain how to go about dismantling a home after a dozen well-lived years within its walls.  It seems like more than just putting belongings into boxes.

We've had three different couches in our living room, but in the same spot this whole time.  Talk about comfort in the familiar. 

In so many ways I know this house by heart.  How many steps to cross the kitchen, to cross the living room, to go out the back door.  The rhythm (and squeaks) of descending the staircase.  The sunlight in every room at every time of the day.  The familiar feel of tasks that have been done countless times, the muscle memory for each and every one.  How long will it take to change that muscle memory for our new space? 

All four of our children came home to this house following their births.  Quite literally, this is the house where we became a family.  For that reason alone I love this place in a special way, despite our having long outgrown it. 

And I realize that this may be one of the hardest goodbyes.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

on packing, kids, and packing with kids









This, my friends, is what's a happenin' inside this whirling mind of mine. I say whirling because, well, you'll get the idea...

:: it is essentially impossible to pack anything when the kids are awake

:: when optimism wins and I do pack when kids are awake, you never know what greater mess they are making in the other room

:: if you let your kids play with a jump rope tied to a slide (a slide without a ladder, and rigged up with wood) eventually there will be tears

:: please don't report me to authorities for allowing the kids to play on the slide with a jump rope

:: it is hard to believe my oldest, Buddy, is making the transition to upper elementary, we are attending a special ceremony this week to mark the occasion

:: why make only one kind of cookie as a teacher thank you when you can make two different kinds and homemade caramel corn too?

:: I know how to bake when kids are awake

:: maybe I'm in denial that this house needs to be packed by next Thursday

:: I'm so glad there is a play set (with a proper slide) at our new house

:: I have about a dozen eloquent, thought provoking blog posts, with accompanying photographs all in my head

:: they are trapped there, you get this instead

:: Pal spends his entire waking day on the go, discovering, squealing, spreading joy

:: I spend my entire day following him around

:: with the amount of exciting stuff Pal discovers each day, I have no idea how he can fall sleep at night for thinking about it all

:: Lovey is going to be a flower girl soon

:: every day she asks "is it my wedding today?"  No, not today, but soon.

:: every time I mention that I need to pack something she asks "are we moving today?" No, not today, but soon.

:: Buddy got to bring his recorder home from school yesterday

:: I am being serenaded by the most wonderful rendition of "Hot Cross Buns" right now

:: I envy people who have professional movers.  Sort of.

:: I am glad that by packing on our own we have to take stock of our belongings and decide what to keep and what to let go

:: next week when I've stayed up way too late a dozen nights in a row to pack I may change my mind about the professional movers

:: Munchkin and Lovey helped wash out some storage bins in the back yard.  Lovey was singing "It's a Hard Knock Life" from Annie while doing so

:: I got a new camera.  A one-of-a kind Lego camera designed and created by Buddy.

:: did you notice the workable flash?

:: that kid amazes me

:: I can't seem to convince Lovey to stop picking my planted flowers.  It is hard to stay frustrated with her when she always presents them to me as a gift

:: today when a police car drove by Munchkin mentioned something about "Cobs," as in "Cobs and Robbers"

:: that kid cracks me up

:: Honey has spent the last several evenings patching up holes where pictures - lots of them - used to hang

:: The house is sounding more echoey now, just not quite like home anymore

:: I've used the word "bittersweet" about a billion times in the past week

:: Does anyone need a slide?  Slightly used, hours of fun, needs a ladder.

Friday, May 10, 2013

green


It became green over the weekend.

Full-fledged, trees bursting with color, as green as the day is long, green.  I've spent my time looking around in amazement.  Charmed that today looks so different from a week ago.  That the windows are open and I can hear the neighborhood.  That even with the tell-tale signs of pollen - truly a complete dusting every morning - that the air feels fresh.

I realize spring comes every year, that I've experienced this particular transition of season 42 times.  But the green, this green, is simply stunning to my senses this time around. 

Though my senses are heightened these days.  With anticipation for a new home.  With end-of-the-school-year rituals and celebrations.  With knowledge that much work lies ahead (though nothing could rival my nesting list our moving list has already been started.)  With understanding of bittersweet goodbyes to people and places that will come all too soon.

I received this text from Honey last Friday.

We are a bit further along in knowing exactly to where we will be moving, though there are still several big pieces to fall into place before we actually have keys in hand.  But into place they will fall.  I know.

Meanwhile I will look at the green around me, seeing it as perhaps Pal does.  Fully.