So there are times as a parent that I find myself nearing the edge.
The edge of frustration.
The edge of a harsh tone of voice.
The edge of turning an otherwise happy moment into one laden with loud voices and stern words.
That edge is oh so tricky. If you are a parent you know exactly what I mean.
However I've been finding lately that if I recognize that edge, acknowledge it, and then kindly turn away from plummeting over it, that I can keep that happy. That positive. That moment of connection to my children, and my confident mothering self.
How do I do this? The recognizing, acknowledging, turning away. Well I am not totally sure, because it happens in a few short seconds. Though I do know that it feels oh so good when it happens.
So I have been practicing. And I am hoping that practice makes perfect. (Well not
perfect, I know that isn't even possible. But closer to perfect than I am now!)
On Saturday afternoon, that edge teased me. The kids were playing (playing a bit like banshees, truth be told), I was sneaking in a few moments on one of the
favorite blogs to read, and I caught myself turning away from the computer and toward them, a harshness welling up, when suddenly I stopped.
I. stopped.
And I said "Hey, guess what, we are going to do something sooooo cool! Dance party USA!"
As it happened I was lucky that the
blog post I was reading had music attached at the time. A song I had never heard, but was oh so enjoying!
So Dance Party USA ensued. Dancing -- with scarves no less! And it continued, and continued on for about 15 listens of that same song.
That same great, amazing, restorative song.
And dancing became wrestling and snuggling and tickling and airplaning on Mama's feet and photo shooting and loving loving loving.
And I watched my children revel. In the pure fun, joy and spirit of the moments.
And I reveled in the pure fun, joy and spirit of the moments.
And I was thankful for my own growth as a mother. My recognizing that tricky tricky edge and my saying to it, "So sorry, not right now, I am busy dancing with my kids!"
Oh, the name of the song you ask?
Everybody by Ingrid Michaelson
Where has she been all my life? I had never heard any of her music before.
I have since bought this amazing song on iTunes! You should too!