| Student ID, circa 1989. |
Not that there were many people to see at that hour. But sit we did for quite some time, talking and thinking ourselves awfully interesting to do such a thing. Mind you, this was in an era when you could roam freely around any airport terminal, there were indoor smoking sections and, apparently, anyone could sit in an airport lounge area at 3:00 in the morning with nary a sideways glance.
It's been years since I've thought of that little trip. For some reason it came to mind this week. Perhaps because of my, somewhat surprising, recognition that I've become a woman who so eagerly embraces routine, and that the young adventuring woman of 19 or 20 seems long gone.
Certainly my routine keeps me from adventuring much these days. But, if I think a bit harder about it, maybe all of my organizing and list-checking actually gives me just enough space to grab that adventure in other ways, in small bits, in ways outside of our routine.
I'm not talking about middle of the night trips, other than to the kids' rooms to check on who is stirring. But I am talking about having enough confidence in our rhythm to know that I can veer from it at times.
I can comfortably leave the house like this....
In order to do this...
Baking cookies and bread, then delivering them to several friends who need a cheering up.
A leisurely trip to the library and getting a whole new stack of books.
Coming home and sitting amongst that mess reading together for a long, long time.
I'm pretty certain that this wouldn't seem much like an adventure to that perky youngster on my student ID. That's just fine. That younger me didn't yet know the true adventure of marriage and home-owning and parenting. That younger me is less experienced and, frankly, less interesting. My wrinkled and sagged and in-pajamas-by-9 version of me, the me of here and now, it just right. So our baking and library adventuring seems just right too.